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Shortly after Easter this year I got a very bad concussion that left me on full bed rest for three weeks and semi bed rest for another 3 weeks. For the first three weeks after the diagnosis I was not allowed to use a computer or a phone. I could not even watch TV. I was only allowed to sleep or take a walk if I felt good. The first couple of weeks were hard. The following weeks were better as I learned how to pace myself. I realized that my body was quite adept at letting me know when it had had enough. And so I listened to me and surprisingly, I learned a lot about myself.
For the first time in my life I was able to rest without guilt and it was wonderful. I unplugged and reconnected with nature and it made me incredibly happy. This enabled me to see ME for the first time in what seemed like forever and I started to understand what was missing in my life, what I needed and what I no longer needed.
For a very long time I have equated my worth with being needed by others and so I have invested all my time and energy into taking care of people, whether it be on an emotional or professional level. But when you no longer have any energy to give you cannot do this and so you start to see things more clearly. You start to get to know yourself a little bit better and then you realize what YOU really need. And as it turns out, I don't want to be needed by anyone anymore. I would like to take care of myself for a while now. I would like to be dedicated to myself and my well-being for a while.
So if you can be patient and forgive my self-interest, check back in a couple of weeks and you will find my new website.
Looking forward to sharing a new life with you...